Not Needing A Reason: On Dialectical Dreams

Betsy Calabaza
2 min readFeb 10, 2022

Whenever Conigastus was trying to swindle
some poor, defenseless fellow, there I would be, in
his way, an increasingly intolerable annoyance to
him. How many times did I speak out against Trigguilla,
the Palace Prefect, either before he had committed
some outrageous violation of law or after the
fact? Who was the voice of the victims whenever the
rapacious barbarians brought their trumped-up
charges against them? And every time I did this, I
knew what the dangers were, and I did the right
thing anyway, despite the threats of the wicked or
their offers of bribes. I was never tempted or intimidated.
And when the great provincial families were
ruined by avaricious individuals and corrupt officials
who together were robbing them blind, I felt their
distress as much as any of the victims and raised my
voice to protest their sufferings

  • Boethius

Smart ni**as but they still learners, with Louis Vuitton cases for their burners
No scholarship, just dirty dollars and ghetto politics, sly bitches that’ll ride the dick
Rob you then pass off your cross like Allen Iverson
Skywalker, born with the force, nothin’ as fly exists

  • Rome Streetz

Ey yo them tens, ni**a

I know, I keep them clean tho

  • Ancient Parable

There’s a distinction between existential experience and phenomenological experience. Phenomenological experience is redundant. Existential experience has a starting point.

The starting point of experience is phenomenological, redundant, reciprocal.

To exist means to witness the redundancy of eternity forever within a single start.

Irony allows us to see many starts, and many endings, based on the same redundancy of experience. The distinction and contrast between irony is itself self-replicating, reciprocal, phenomenological.

To experience the start of irony is to become “self-aware” of a self that stands in contrast to the many endings relative to the singular, existential start.

Without the contrast, the self does not exist. The reciprocity is phenomenological. The individualism is existential.

The individual that exists is defined by the start towards an end; a methodology of reducing the infinite into particularities.

To break from universal, phenomenological experience towards individual experience is an illusion of phenomena within the individual.

There’s a give and pull to being an individual that’s actually an eternal function of existence.

This moment has always been always. This moment has not always started from here.



Betsy Calabaza

blooms — crazy rants masked as abstract experimental philosophy. s/o CS Peirce