On Boredom
It’s hard to write about boredom when you’re not bored but it’s even harder to write about boredom when you are bored.
Bored with the world. One with the world. In the world without being active in the world.
Physics says that everything that comes into existence overcame a barrier of activation. We overcame that barrier. Now we’re on a free fall unless we overcome something else.
But what happens when we don’t want to overcome anything? We just sustain in Reality. Reality washing over us? No, Reality pushing us. But we don’t feel the push. We don’t feel any overcoming. We feel like nothing in particular. We feel like nothing because we’re not overcoming.
An example are these words. You may not have struggled with these words up to now. The words were just pushing you to the next experience. Even tho you were overcoming these words and still are. You are tying all these words together in your head but you’re getting nothing out of it.
The boredom persist even in the overcoming. The boredom is not in the meaningless of existence but the numbness of our experience.
How do we grow sensitive? How we treat seemingly trivial things as non-trivial? Who are we to act as gods? We’re gods!
Bored gods? Or gods without worshipers? Would a god that could worship themselves be better than a god that couldn’t? We’ll be better and we’ll worship ourselves.
Sure, everyone else would think we’re crazy. The goal becomes to activate the energy needed to not be bored while still respecting the activation energy of other people. So they can feel comfortable or bored but not bothered by us.
Before we had to follow the lead of the king or the bishop. Our psyche trained to act as a community for the greater good. A fine tuned herd mentality removed the boredom and re-addressed the bored as useless.
Now that all the herds are gone and we’re just cities of individuals, what is there to overcome? Yes, we have universal goals like advancement in medicine and peace. Beyond that, however, what is there? What is there to overcome? Whatever we want. Since there’s no king, bishop anymore. Save for decency, we can do whatever. We can do. We can create.
The first step is growing in sensibility. Boredom is either an illusion or a physical set back. If it’s an illusion, we just have to imagine something else. If a physical set back, then we have to go to therapy with ourselves and grow more sensitive.
Each measure of existence required an energy buildup. Do you know what that energy buildup was?
The energy buildup is determined by the concepts we want to apply or map to our experience. For example, if you want to use chemistry as the foundational aspect, you can say such and such atoms experience such and such a sensation that resulted in the end product. If you want to use religion as the foundational aspect, you can say that the energy buildup was a struggle of good and evil. Regardless of the conclusion, we want to focus on the sensitivity required to make any observation.
We need to be sensitive to how the words and principles relate to one another. We need to be consistent to make sense of it. We need to be consistent because our sensitivity itself is a concept that can be proven wrong. Consistency ensures the strength of the tools we’re using as we continue to use our sensitivity to build on.
What are we if not our sensitivity? Mostly bored. Assuming this boredom is not associated with a medical condition, in which case you would need medical help, we’re bored because we see the alternative as damaging or not bearing any fruits. Before we couldn’t experiment as much because the damage or lack of food could hurt the entire herd. But now we just have to worry about the damage to ourselves.
If we do get to be sensitive, that’s when we can get hurt.
Say we become sensitive and get involved with learning. We overcome terms and concepts and principles and we learn chemistry. We can then use chemistry as a tool to work on all the free energy around us now that we have become sensitive to it. We don’t interpret the same experience as before, as bored. We interpret the same experience with tools that help us overcome.
Overcome for what? Well that’s tricky. The overcoming can only be interpreted by the sensitivity and tools you have. What we can say is that the overcoming is where creativity, creation happens. You can only experience this as a creator. A creator willing to get hurt to experience sensitivity.
